Sunday, February 3, 2013
I have been absent from this blog for quite a long time and I know some of this blog's followers have wondered what happened as I had been very regular. I especially want to apologize to those of you that had been following my 'Art and Meaning' project. With few exceptions, for the last 2 years I have not been doing art. Had my friend Don Gray not encouraged me to come over to his studio and create some monotypes I would have not created any art at all. Two years ago this month my partner, Kirby was diagnosed with lung cancer, given 4-6 weeks to live and that became the focus of my life. He decided to not deal with it through traditional means and treated it metaphysically. He lived for 16 months and passed away a few days before his birthday. For the last 7 months I have been integrating what has happened.
Now the blank canvas seems impossibly blank as I come to it a changed person. In many ways my life is a blank canvas as it has gone through a major transformation and what it all is going to look like is unknown to me. I cannot be old with it, the old is coming along and will inform the present but cannot be repeated. I am very curious what the painting of my life will look like but I have to let it unfold in a gentle way.
I am reentering my studio and sidling up to my art. I rephotographed the monotypes and am in the process of repairing a couple of pieces that need attention. The next step will be to gesso a beautiful large surface Don built for me. Then hopefully I will be able to begin...anew.