Sunday, February 3, 2013

Beginning Again

Kirby Ferris June 18, 1949- June 13, 2012. My muse and partner.

I have been absent from this blog for quite a long time and I know some of this blog's followers have wondered what happened as I had been very regular. I especially want to apologize to those of you that had been following my 'Art and Meaning' project. With few exceptions, for the last 2 years I have not been doing art. Had my friend Don Gray not encouraged me to come over to his studio and create some monotypes I would have not created any art at all. Two years ago this month my partner, Kirby was diagnosed with lung cancer, given 4-6 weeks to live and that became the focus of my life. He decided to not deal with it through traditional means and treated it metaphysically. He lived for 16 months and passed away a few days before his birthday. For the last 7 months I have been integrating what has happened.

Now the blank canvas seems impossibly blank as I come to it a changed person. In many ways my life is a blank canvas as it has gone through a major transformation and what it all is going to look like is unknown to me. I cannot be old with it, the old is coming along and will inform the present but cannot be repeated. I am very curious what the painting of my life will look like but I have to let it unfold in a gentle way.

I am reentering my studio and sidling up to my art. I rephotographed the monotypes and am in the process of repairing a couple of pieces that need attention. The next step will be to gesso a beautiful large surface Don built for me. Then hopefully I will be able to begin...anew.

7 comments:

Dan Dorfer said...

all the Creative healing blessings are there with you, as I believe they always have been ...
♡☮Dan

Katherine said...

Thank you dear Dan. So nice to hear from you!! I hope you are doing well.I am going to take your comment into the studio with me as I enter the creative process.

ArtPropelled said...

Katherine, I'm so sorry for your loss. Getting back into your art can seem daunting when you are trying to come to terms with loss, but once you begin I'm sure you will get right back into it and feel the healing benefits of loosing yourself in your work. Just begin with no expectations.... and the next day begin again.
xoxo

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Katherine said...

Robin thank you. That was the perfect thing to hear. It is so nice to hear from you. xoxox

susan buchanan said...

i am so sorry for your loss. art does heal and the world has missed you. welcome back.

Katherine said...

Susan thank you so much. I have been painting and it has in fact been healing. I haven't posted anything yet as my camera has me perplexed at the moment...but soon!