"A Girl So Old in Her Shoes" Pencil and Ink on paper, 15cmx10cm (6"x4")
"What is the meaning of doing art for you?"
As long as I can remember I have drawn or painted.
I need to express myself. All of my deepest emotions,
even the dark ones, find a place on my canvases and
paper. I am the happiest when drawing and painting,
as I create magical places where my personality can be
totally true, without any restraint. I can rearrange pain
and sorrow into beauty. Sometimes a harsh beauty
perhaps, but there's always hope in my work. I can totally
loose myself while painting. Two friends of mine (who
shared an atelier with me) made fun of me, because,
being absorbed in my own world, I don't see or hear a
thing, and am not aware of what's going on around me.
In my art, I express my emotions, but there are also other
deeper layers. I often use symbolic meanings and archetypes,
connections with nature, old forgotten god(ess)s, and
mythology. I like the idea of intermingling old icons with
the icons of today. I don't think this over for a long time,
it simply appears while creating.
The happiness while creating also contains struggles and
frustration. I struggle mostly while painting. It seems that
drawing feels more natural for me. I begin a drawing and go
with the flow, my thoughts leading my hand and slowly there
appears an image. I never feel insecure about a drawing but
I'm always questioning myself while painting. I have to learn
to let go more. To paint is to struggle, but at the end it is always
satisfying and freeing. Even if the result isn't what I expected.
When my kids were little I didn't have the time, space and
patience for painting. That's why I started to draw little drawings.
I'm doing this still today. There's always time and space for a
drawing. But after some years I began to feel very restless and
had to paint. As I now have the time I have started painting
I transform my personal emotions into more universal images,
hoping people will recognize what I want to say and find
(some) comfort in it. As I wrote in the beginning; I simply
need to draw and paint, it's like breathing for me.
/I feel like a lost soul ~ i go to sleep and dream again ~
Silent echoes, strange shapes ~ i have my own world....... /
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